A Saturday Morning

This is a usual Saturday morning. A bit unusual because it is not sunny at all. People get gloomy now and then, especially on a dark, cloudy day.
Yet I'm in a peaceful mind, dotted with pleasantness coming from nowhere.
Freedom, songs, mailman.
A wish to the future, is just like watching a child in sleep - blissful, full of hope - upon the gazing of the little face.

Be more decisive

Too much hesitation is a bad thing. Action always speaks louder than words. Just do it! Enjoy the youth and don't forget your faith.

They say multitasking is low efficiency- I need the capability of pick up & put down,focus, and relax.

Life is all serious? It is what it is. Surprise me then!

Peace

Inner peace is the hardest to get. Avoidance is just going to bring more issues later. Face it, and let it be.

If you forget me - Neruda

I want you to know
one thing.

You know how this is:
if I look
at the crystal moon, at the red branch
of the slow autumn at my window,
if I touch
near the fire
the impalpable ash
or the wrinkled body of the log,
everything carries me to you,
as if everything that exists,
aromas, light, metals,
were little boats
that sail
toward those isles of yours that wait for me.

Well, now,
if little by little you stop loving me
I shall stop loving you little by little.

If suddenly
you forget me
do not look for me,
for I shall already have forgotten you.

If you think it long and mad,
the wind of banners
that passes through my life,
and you decide
to leave me at the shore
of the heart where I have roots,
remember
that on that day,
at that hour,
I shall lift my arms
and my roots will set off
to seek another land.

But
if each day,
each hour,
you feel that you are destined for me
with implacable sweetness,
if each day a flower
climbs up to your lips to seek me,
ah my love, ah my own,
in me all that fire is repeated,
in me nothing is extinguished or forgotten,
my love feeds on your love, beloved,
and as long as you live it will be in your arms
without leaving mine

我要你知道一件事。

这是你懂得的：
如果我

透过我的窗口，注视那水晶的月亮，

在缓慢的秋天和红色的树枝旁；
如果我触摸

那火焰
似有似无的灰烬
或者那层层褶皱的木柴
所有这些都把我带向你
仿佛那存在的一切，
金属，芬芳，光亮，
都是小船
向着
你在等我的，那些属于你的岛屿航行。

好了，现在
假如你渐渐停止爱我
我也会一点点停止爱你。

如果你
突然忘记我
别来找我，
因为我将早已把你忘怀。

如果你认为那穿过我生活
的猎猎疾风
漫长而疯狂，
如果你决定
在我已经扎根的

心的堤岸上离开我
记住
在那一天，
在那个时刻，
我将抬起我的手臂
而我的根也将动身
去寻找另一片土地。

可是
如果在每一天，
在每个时刻，
你感觉你是我注定的
不安宁的甜蜜
如果每一天都有一朵花
为寻找我而攀上你的红唇
啊，我的爱，我的心，
所有的火焰都将不灭的燃烧，

不灭，不忘记 -
我的爱源于你的爱，亲爱的人，
情长今生

不离开你我的臂弯

Parents of the world

Sometimes I envy those who are parents. Sometimes I feel helpless for them. I'm deeply touched and yet I'm hesitating. The love is unselfish at all- but at some point I feel it's all for one himself. I think of my mom now and at this moment all of a sudden I'm all tears.

How to Say No?

I feel like there are something I need to learn:
1) Be patient and wait for the best time to react
2) Be brave and say no

I can really work on improving those things.

I Think I Need To Go Out For A Walk

I think I need to go out for a walk.
It has been tiring, like usual, with the glittering of the happiness of humanity.

Blue

I'm in a blue, blue mood.
The sun and the wind and the palm trees.
They say it never rains in California.

Today my mom went back home. The place I call home. I bet she starts to miss me already. I am your child. One and only - not matter where I am, how old I am, and who I am. I'm naughty and lazy, only when you are by my side.

My heart is soft. I stop at red light, watch cars passing by. Traffic goes on and off, and time fast forward. For a moment, I feel like I'm a camera and the world is revolving around me.

Mankind is so self-contradictory. Actually the world is composed of contradictions - just like the Tai-chi pattern. Everything is yuan fen then.

I need some rest. Then I need to sit down and read some books. Start to take care of myself and not to worry to much. Denise was right, when your mom is with you, there is no place dangerous. It reminded me in "how I met your mother" when Marshall described the feeling his dad gave him - "He was like some superhero who could see way out into the darkness."

Now I am driving, not everybody else.

Robot & Unicorn

On the way back home I heard the "Tech Talk" from NPR, which talks about the robot conversation from Cornell University. The researchers wired two chat box robots together and let themselves have a conversation. It was really funny.

One of my good friends said that he is going to study artificial intelligence. I can now see how the topic is interesting. When robots can drive car for us, chat with us, is there anything that they couldn't do? What world are they gonna be in? Not human, definitely not just animal. Interesting!