2012年1月29日星期日

Daming Palace

I watched a great documentary called "Daming Palace" today. I haven't seen such a good documentary in a long long time. The music and picture is fantanstic, let alone the narration. Daming Palace was once the central of the largest city in the world, around 7th century A.D. I was deeply touched: A city that embraced all kinds of cultures, ethnities and thoughts. A palace that was magnificent, solemn yet open-minded. People from all over the world travelled to here, learned something and went back. Some peole spent there whole life there, like Abeno Nakamaro. It was exactly like a US society, but an empire version, plus a major culture. Why, after over 1000 years, we still struggle for the openness and tolerance our country once achieved?

Sometimes when I'm at a museum I gaze at a vaze, or a dancing figures, my thoughts would fly a thousand years back to imagine what the life and world was like back in that time. Isn't that amazing? Everyone could only live a limited time of his/her life, but hundreds of thousands of people of a time create a thing called history. Some unknown crafter made a pottery figure for fun, he/she would never know that many many years later someone would gaze upon it with surpise and being touched at the same time. Ah, fanscinated.

I know that the palace is no longer there, only the ruins. But I still want to go to the city, just to walk on the same soil of the once greatest empire or to touch the ruins of the past. I can understand why people like to film those movies where a person travels back to the history - it is really fanscinating, just to think about it.

The past is the past, but the lively stories of the people from the past will go to the next generation on and on, until the end of the civilization. Maybe many years later, a child, with his innocent eyes, would gaze upon my belongings. I shall see my world again in his eyes.

A computer generated picture of the original Daming Palace

2012年1月15日星期日

一月份的这个时候

被教训了……说我还没到工作岗位多久就请求休假两周……好吧。我收敛一点还不行吗?

我想说的是,有的时候我真的觉得有点可悲。做父母的真不容易,所有精力都在孩子身上。孩子说要吃这个,立马就做,孩子说要做那个,立马就做那个。人的一生,自己的目标是什么?昨天一天Nelly不在家 于是我们轻松了很多。晚上去吃马氏(CC你知道的)回来的路上我问PY你觉得今天感觉怎样?PYF说,哇 我感觉很轻松。结果PY绕了360度的弯,就是不肯承认她觉得轻松……我有时候在想,假如我遇到这种事情,我一定要调整自己的情绪不能整天就围绕一个人转。嗯。说得轻松。

入手了模拟人生3。还蛮贵的,不过现在实在是懒得下载怕下了半天又玩不了,干脆支持正版。出来很久了,一直没有想起要玩。最近十分好奇,养成模拟类游戏是游戏中我唯一感兴趣的。当然,还有那种哈利波特类型的,留到下次。我在想是否应该给小朋友们买一个Wii的好玩的游戏,他们的生活确实是有点单调……总比埋在电脑上好。但是毕竟是游戏……唔 再思考一下……

2012年1月3日星期二

I thought I didn't care any more

This is quite ironic. Three of my good friends were happily jumping up in front of the historical building in my hometown, while I - who used to be among them all the time - am browsing the photos alone in front of my slow computer in another country far far away.

Well, I thought I didn't care any more. The fact that I was leaving out, and will be leaving out, is scary. I couldn't imagine being with them. No. But if I really don't care that much, why would it matter? I try to imagine myself in the photo. Laughing out loudly and jumping up - it hurts. I probably will end up saying I don't feel well and I have to leave.

I could almost feel my tears when I saw the photos. You are still alive, and look, you are happy. I wouldn't want to see you again. I could pretend that I'm strong enough, but I'm not, so I'm just going to be hiding. One good thing about being grown up is that you can admit things that you've never admitted before.

Ah, the vulnerable human being! I hate it and yet the emotional aspect is the only reason that life is worth living.